The magnificent words used to comfort people when they are down.
These words make the effect of Viagra like “lift you up when you are down”. Often it make people feel relieve and no more blue.
However, these words should not be applicable to our self because it tends to make us gave up easily and finding excuse for not trying the best.
In most of the time, trying is not enough. Trying is just a first step in starting a new stuff, later on, 100 percent of effort plus blood and sweat are needed to make it a success.
Randy Pausch, a lecture who diagnoses with pancreas cancer and has 6 months more to live. He delivers a last lecture on “how to achieve your childhood dream”. During the talk, he emphasis on a quote
“Brick wall is for people for not want it badly, but is a chance for people who want it badly”.
So, next time, when you hit your head on the brick wall, find a hammer and break the wall.
The 4 years of study in university remain well in my mind, is a something that shall not be fade by the flow of time.
The last school that I was attended, um, left a lot memories that accompanying me until now.
For my life after study was not satisfying as expected. I was stuck in the office for 3 years, repeating the same things every day, even on the Sunday, I was called to office to have a meeting.
Fed up with the same routine that keep recycling itself.
Haha. Still a mommy's boy after working, going back to home every week to have a lunch or dinner to make sure my mom has a good look of me.
I have a steady and health shape and it was all my mom has wishes for me.
She praying and eating vege for lunch every day to ensure the god bless her children to live happily and healthily.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am feeling I had lost myself in the concrete mist. Seeking and trying each best path to reach the destination.
"I want to quick this hid and seek games." I said to myself.
"I want to step out now" I am telling myself.
The following day I pass up the resignation letter to my boss.
A bit sadness, anxiety, loss across my mind. I was going to change, for better or for worse.
My boss tells me to have a good future and we have lunch together.
The climate of all is that he is paying the bill. Woh, 1st time after 3 years working under him.
Having a last glance of my desk and feeling heavily, I stepping hard, out of the office.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Walking directionless in the road, my mind all blank. From this moment onward, I was not a typical white collar.
Somehow I feel I cant mingle with the crowd.
Forgetting how I make my way back to the house I rented together with my friends in PJ.
I go inside my room directly without greeting my housemate.
After a nice hot shower, I laying on the bed looking at the ceiling. The old dream come across, "Backpacking to the Europe country ".The more I though of it the stronger desire in heart telling me to go.
I jump off bed and taking out the saving book, I started to calculate.
Feeling sad for somethings that is lost in the middle of the road.
When you going back to look for it, it was gone.
Do you regret for giving it up on the first place?
Life is like a one-way road, we move forward with the different paces and sometime we look back to the furthest of our eye can see. But we can never go back to the place we started.
Even if we got a chance to go back, what we wanted may not be there anymore.
